mothreeeefuthreeee.

2009-03-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

new site,

www.countingtheminutexo.blogspot.com

need to start anew.

2009-03-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

feels like a world away
tmr will be fruits and water diet. nothing else for the whole week. no ifs ands or buts. just have to do it. i really want to be thin and in control.

man im feeling so depressed over my ...
:(
:(

bored. no fun here. gotta hit the books now. goodbye all. have a good start tmr. :)

2009-03-08T13:38:00.005+08:00

i guess second best is all i will know
school was hectic. filled with all ct and tuition.
spent the weekends on cruise star virgo. missed saturday's cip.

did i mention that physics ct2 was a killer? bet i'll fail for the first time despite studying so hard
:(

study study study i gotta buck up.

2009-02-25T20:46:00.005+08:00

a series of pull backs and forths
yay yay yay yay concert was great! haha, hazwan is a hardcore bitch hahaha! well i think they put up an awesome performance and also we manage to sell quite a number of tix. good job 4E3, luv! \m/

still can't find the usb :( shall put up photos when i get the usb/card reader. so bear with it, the wordy ugly posts.

im going to study for the tests tomorrow. goodnight.
im so gonna lose weight by the end of march. food is the worst enemy of mine from now on. i will be thin!! SELF CONTROL!

"i believe you don't know what you've got until you have to say goodbye"

2009-02-24T22:06:00.002+08:00

"all the lucks to 4E3'09. may tomorrow be a success and we'll have lotsa fun."
\m/

2009-02-23T23:51:00.004+08:00

hope is an unfulfilled wish
game against broadrick, 47-8. we were playing with damn funny combination for today's game haha but it ended well and i guess everybody was happy :) its a regret that it ended here but its okay. its the time we spent together that matters more i guess. go gvnb hehe!! bdiv'09 <3

back to school, street netball. watched my class rehearsal for the wednesday's concert @hall. let's hope it will be awesome and everything will be just fine. go 4E3, let's do our best. all the lucks amazing earthlings. <3

i'm lazy to collect my mobile from simei. i'm lazy to charge my phone. i cant find the camera usb still. i feel like studying now but! i don't understand poa and i can't find my chinese textbook to study for the upcoming test.

man this is sad.
shall sleep now cos' there's school tomorrow. goodnight all.
:(

2009-02-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

i bet you're just fine
yesterday was good, met girlfriends in the morning for a swim then lunch @ehub! bowling and imma winner, i won adeline and kzel with many times spare and strikes weeeeee haha. after that slacked @burger king for a few hours. went home around five plus. :)

i still can't find my usb. :( :( :( :(

2009-02-20T23:21:00.005+08:00

instincts are misleading
hello world. i totally screwed up my history ca1, very sad. :(
i need to seriously buck up. i wanna do well so badly! someone motivate me please.

FOCUS. I NEED GET THIS RIGHT. I NEED TO BUCK UP!
>10points for L1R4!! :)

2009-02-19T23:21:00.004+08:00

"charity concert by 4E3'09, please support! tyvm."
<3

2009-02-19T23:07:00.005+08:00

you'll string your life through hope
so, guess things have been alright for me lately.
38/50 for chemistry test. its so unexpected but i like it. used to fail chemistry very badly and now im getting 38/50, how amazing? it really proves that hardwork paid off. spent days memorizing the qualitative analysis muhahaha. well now i'll just have to keep it up and do well for both chemistry and physics. at least an A2 for combined science. FOCUS!!!! heheheheh. :):):)

also for sure im going to get more serious with my diet. its time to really lose weight!! disgusting arms. disgusting thighs. disgusting stomach = total turn off
no more no more no more.
:(

studies + to be thin: i know i can. just need to have more self discipline yaw! :)

you can do this, take cant out of your vocabulary.
learn to repeat endlessly to yourself, "It all depends on me"

2009-02-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

good doesn't last forever neither does bad
yawns. school was fine. three free periods spent studying chemistry also spent a period or so catching up with gary haha. and after school had chemistry test then home for tuition. :)

keep going chan, stay strong. focus:)

2009-02-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

don't get discouraged, there is a breakthrough at the end of every plateau.
i think i got approved in dropping my dnt. well more time, less stress. now i can focus more on my other subjects.

"you can do anything you set your mind to"

2009-02-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

fear can keep us up all night long, but faith makes one fine pillow.
school's fine, left class at 01235. game against east spring @kallang, 25-20.
one more game to go. go bdiv'09! :)

pictures will be up soon i hope. i still cant find my camera's usb.
yes and let's pray that tomorrow i'll not have to go for dnt lesson -.-

you block your dream when you allow
your fear to grow bigger than your faith. stay strong. :)

2009-02-15T13:42:00.000+08:00

it's true that time is flying by too fast
yesterday was pretty awesome. training in the morning was short and sweet, pretty much cool as a babysitter for the sec ones lol. after training, we had a small gathering to welcome the sec ones. played team bonding games. we had pizzas, coffee bean's cakes and all. hahaha incredible food. after the lil gathering, went bowling @ehub. im never the loser for two games. to make them happy, i actually allowed rafidah or charmaine to be the champ (i forgot). sucha nice friend i am. we were shouting like some idiot, making damn lot of noise as if we own the whole place. hahaha. after bowling, aloozy the loser for both games treated us bubble tea hahaha. we headed to fair price to get poker cards and some snacks then to pasir ris park. played taiti and truth and dare. hilarious and stupid dares hahahahaha. okay overall a really amazing day spent with the teammates, thanks girls :):):)

guess will be studying later @mac with my sissy. no more procrastinating, i need to get things done. :) :)

have a nice day all. :)

2009-02-13T22:13:00.006+08:00

i smile up to the sky, i know i'll be alright
okay a few more hours to valentine's day. today was fine, ran 2.4km during pe. after school studied for awhile. home and went to meet girlfriends, had dinner @eighteen chefs. once again thanks for all the gifts. <3

will be having training tomorrow. bdiv'09 let's just all enjoy the training and do our best, no stress no stress hehehe :) :)

happy advance valentine's day.
have an amazing day, loves :)

2009-02-12T23:56:00.001+08:00

whatever makes you happy now
my head hurts like a bitch.

so cute right, ahahahahaha :P

okay its late, im going to sleep now.
goodnight all, have an awesome valentine's day eve hehehe.<3

2009-02-11T21:57:00.008+08:00

a faulty record tape in our minds
ive decided to drop dnt. i'm not sure if i'll regret later but now all i know is i hate dnt and im a big loser who gives up without even trying.
"sucha loser you are jiaqi"

:(
:(

well i swear i'll study doubly hard. i need to get this right. watch me become better. i will be better than i am. just wait and see.

&ive got real amazing friends and classmates to back me up <3

im going to feel acomplished but first i need motivations.
:(

2009-02-10T10:36:00.006+08:00

make me feel a thousand times better
didnt went school today, was too tired to get up plus im having menses. my god. i think i'll be spending my day studying, doing dnt. and charmaine coming later to my place to help me with my maths. please come quickly bitch, tyvm hehehehe hahaha

have a nice day, :)

2009-02-09T22:48:00.006+08:00

what's right and what's real
im so sick of school please.
i need to stop procrastinating. i need to stop being lazy. i need to start studying. i need a breakthrough. i need to feel motivated, im so not motivated now :(:(:(:(
(ive been binging like crazy. i need to stop binging.)

"you're never beaten until you admit it."
80% mind, 20% body.

2009-02-08T20:00:00.003+08:00

its amazing just how much pain the human heart can take
GV-PRCS, 20-31
bad game: disappointment and a letdown. :(

saturday was awesome. had training in the morning in tkss. then shawn's place for some bonding session with majong and bbq. food was awesome, classmates were cute. hahahahaha, won $$ in majong again. after that met girlfriends @bbq pit09, say hello to cheryl and went off shortly with the rest. home around 11plus. :)

sunday was fine. woke up around 2. tv then bathe, met fiona under my block. then went over to mad's place for steamboat. then home around 7plus. :)

showing people how you feel only gives them more ways to hurt you, so true.

2009-02-04T22:20:00.002+08:00

pulling myself together.
i know i can. im not gonna screw up the game tomorrow. nothing to fear, nothing to lose. i'll do whatever i can. stay focus. i'll be strong. i'll play okay. i know i can. dont wanna be a letdown again. :/

school: busy common tests. dnt. homework. :(

poa and history test tmr. haven't study yet. and im feeling so sleepy yawns. :/

2009-02-03T23:34:00.004+08:00

i guess second best is all i will know
yawns. just came back from mac, studying with cassandra. going to do dnt later. sleepy sleepy. training tomorrow.

GV- EVSS, 60-07.
jiayou greenview, three down three more to go.

2009-02-02T00:56:00.004+08:00

because i want to be different
im back from running.

yesterday was spent with aloy charm ting.

today: study @mac > popular > watsons > home > pasir ris park > home.
studied for tests @mac. ran around pasir ris park to lose weight. muhahaha. okay whatever. long day tomorrow. school from 0720 to 0145 then game @kallang against evss. let's hope we will all play well.

pictures soon, cause apparently my lappy is down and im using my sissy macbook. so bear with the wordy posts.

go greenview netball. two down, four more to go.

2009-01-31T00:39:00.004+08:00

what does not kill you, makes you stronger
school > study area > home > costa sand resort > home.
school was fine. stayed back after school to study with study group from 0130 to 5plus. how hardworking man. after that went home change and cab down to costa sands resort then home.

"you cant always get what you want but if you try,
sometime you might find you get what you need"

2009-01-29T23:48:00.005+08:00

im all worn out, running out of faith
Gv against Crl, 41-17.
Kallang > school > home > yizhen's place > home.
went yizhen's place for majong. i got all the lucks for majong.

why am i feeling so lousy. im feeling so not right now. playing so many different positions. why am i always the one who screw up the game. maybe they'll be better off without me. more of a hindrance than help. sorry team.

2009-01-28T21:26:00.003+08:00

i want you to believe in me
training after school.
totally burnt. tired. fell down twice. can't be bothered. im okay. stay strong hee.

game tomorrow. go greenview netball. put in the effort and we'll make it through. jiayou jiayou. <3

ate fruits, water, soup and nothing. cheers to me. tomorrow will be the same. or maybe something light during recess cause got a game in the noon. i can do it. im so gonna lose weight by my birthday! it'll be the greatest gift man. or maybe before i graduate? hahahaha. > _ _ _ ty kg please.

stay strong, resist the temptations~

2009-01-27T22:46:00.007+08:00

my ultimate: to have control.
yay yay yay yay yay happy chinese niu year dolls.
steamboat. pineapple tarts. nuts. cookies. sweets. chocos. soft drinks. humans. visiting. angpows. food food food. endless binging. regret now. just fruits and water for the next few days.

gv vs crl game on thurs. let's hope that i'll not screw up the game. i need all the luck man. go greenview netball team <3

going to lose the thigh arm stomach sooooooooooooooooooooon.

"you CAN do this. take can't out of your vocabulary."
i.need.to.focus.

2009-01-24T23:53:00.003+08:00

you need to have a little faith
trimmed my hair. walked around town and got nothing. going to do very very last minute shopping tomorrow again. no mood.

chinese new year came too soon. everywhere is so packed with humans.

need to lose weight. come on make me skinny hahaha.

someone asked me "why regret what you can't change"
mmmmm. if it's meant to be, it will be.

2009-01-24T09:50:00.004+08:00

there there, baby, it's just textbook stuff. tt's in the ABCs of growing up.
yawns woke up so early in the morning. long break. saturday to tuesday cheers. chinese new year. doing last minute shopping and haircut later @town with my sissy again. lazy to go out but still i have to. mom rushing me to get my things for chinese new year.

my sister is sleeping still. she's such a piggeh.

chinese new year goodies. mmmmmmm. pineapple tarts hehehehe. :) :) :)

BUT still trying to lose some weight desperately. feeling so fat. :@

2009-01-23T04:08:00.000+08:00

"when you try your best, but you don't succeed

when you get what you want, but not what you need

when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

stuck in reverse

when the tears come streaming down your face

when you lose something you can't replace

when you love someone, but it goes to waste

could it be worse?"

2009-01-22T22:40:00.002+08:00

if the mind keeps thinking you've had enough, but the heart keeps telling you don't give up
have been sleeping at 11pm waking up at 3am for the past few days to do my dnt ideas. it all turns out to be crap, have to redo. my god. i swear i feel like crying man. dnt ah dnt.

netball. im training as a keeper now (shocking shit)
i'll do what i can with the position thrown to me. i know i can. next game will be on 29jan, against coral. no stress no stress. greenview netball <3

chinese new year soon, so not prepared. doing last minute shopping tomorrow with sissy. timing for chinese new year this year is so wrong. so zzz. so not the right mood. rah.

2009-01-19T00:17:00.003+08:00

hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night
yesterday training. studying @mac. tampines. pizzahut for dinner. studying @mac again till midnight. today tv the whole morning. studying. parkway parade in the evening with family.

i think about it for quite some time.
i no longer know what i really want. im feeling so lost. i guess just throw me any position, i'll do my best and hopefully it'll contribute to the team. i'll work hard. i'll do my part. i'll keep going. i'll not give up. stay strong. no more behaving like a fucking pessimistic bitch.

everything will end, soon.
tomorrow will be a better day.

studies. netball. lose weight. nothing else for now, it'll just be like this till zonal is over i guess.

2009-01-18T17:55:00.005+08:00

"but there's no end in sight
it's the faith that makes you stronger
the only way you get there
is one step at a time"

bottom line: you don't always get what you want.

2009-01-18T01:16:00.004+08:00

"see i was on the verge of breaking down
sometimes silence can seem so loud
there are miracles in life i must achieve
but first i know it starts inside of me"

lowest point: hope for the best expect the worst. numb.
:(

2009-01-15T18:15:00.002+08:00

because love never leaves your side
guess im feeling better now. thanks alot to those who msged me and everything. <3

im so worn out after crying all out last night. eyes are puffy and ugly.
feeling so sick and tired. rested at home today.

i dont want to miss shots like how i did yesterday. i never want to be the one pulling the team down again. i want the team to excel. i want the team to acheive. i want to be more of a help than hinderance to the team. i want to play well. i want to be able to perform under pressure. i can i know i can.

2009-01-15T00:48:00.004+08:00

focus focus i know i can
i can't help but to think about the game we just played against tkgs this afternoon. 10-20, tkgs won. my shots were horrible. cant even put in underpole shots. my fault. :/ sorry team. i hate myself for not perfoming just now. im sorry sorry sorry sorry. gah. thanks teammates for being nice and all. really appreciate it.

total letdown today. :( :(

tired puffy eyes.

2009-01-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

searching for something real to feel
doing dnt. my god so lazy to continue nowwwwwwww. :( ive just started on definition and i realised that i dont have dnt paper. so i think i'll start tomorrow. gonna spend whole night finishing till the 10 ideas. crazy but possible laaaaa i hope. muhaha.

"don't let your fears stray the goal."

so true. FOCUS and just play our best tomorrow, nothing to be afraid of. confidence baby. go gvnb! winning is just a bonus. fight hard girls. i know we can. let's put up a good fight!! <3

2009-01-12T21:55:00.002+08:00

and in the end, you just want to be with the one that makes you laugh
tired. school. training. home. plenty of schoolwork undone. im so dead :/ okay whatever.

wednesday's game with tkgs. hopefully we'll be on tip-top form and we'll win. yeah go greenview netball. i wanna win. we will be able to perform. three cheers. able to skip P.E too, hahahaha. :)

dnt's theme is out. simple yet difficult.

2009-01-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

and one day what's lost can be found
met up with bestf just now, catch up with her and everything. great yaw, like finally!! before that went kovan with my sissy. got nothing. school bag shoe bag not bought yet. sad. i need to do some shopping asap!!

feeling irritated and upset for no reasons.
(i think my menses is coming, thats why im feeling all kinds of emotions. -.-)

first game on wednesday: i'll do my best. i'll not give up no matter what. i wanna win. go greenview netball. i know we can. we can we can. <3

i need a motivation boost, im so under-motivated :(:(

2009-01-10T17:20:00.006+08:00

motivations baby
1. you will be fat if you eat today
2. you don't need food
3. fat people can't fit everywhere
4. guys will be able to pick you up without a struggle
5. you'll be able to run faster with no weight holding you back
6. people will remember you as the "thin beautiful one"
7. guys will want to get to know you
8. starving = excellent willpower
9. bones are clean and pure
10. fat is dirty and hangs onto your bones like a parasite
11. disgusting, fat, ghetto, trailor trash girls on jerry springer.
12. the models are NOT FAT.
13. too many obese people in this world.
14. people who eat are selfish and unrealistic
15. only fat people are attracted to fat people
16. you'll be able to move as quietly & skillfully as a spider
17. only thin people are graceful
18. if you slap a fat person, a shockwave ripples over their skin. thats disgusting.
19. do you want people to say "fuck off fattie" or "you're soo light!!"
20. underweight = perfect body
21. ballerina or beanbag
22. starve off the parts you don't need. their ugly and drag you down.
23. nothing can't be fixed without hunger or weight loss.
24. saying "no thanks" to food is saying "yes please" to thin
25. nothing tastes as good as thin feels
26. is food more important than happiness in life?
27. when you start to feel dizzy & weak, your almost there.
28. hunger is your friend, it won't betray you like food
29. food makes you fat, bloated, ugly, and unhappy
30. anorexia is your secret weapon
31. thin people look good in any kind of clothes.
32. food rots your teeth
33. puffy cheeks, double chins, and flabby hips are not attractive.
34. fatty areas stretch and sag as you get older
35. eating little saves you money
36. fat people make their country look bad
37. fat people die earlier
38. fat people sweat more and smell bad
39. youll be the envy of all other girls
40. all the guys will want you
41. the word fat will apply to you in a sarcastic way
42. no one wants to see a fat person dance
43. girls will be jealous of you
44. you will know that you look better than everyone else
45. thin is sexy
46. everyone would rather be with a thin girl
47. tall, beautiful, skinny, thin
48. a moment on the lips, forever on the hips.
49. you will have confidence
50. there won't be any fat when you bend over.
51. no fats jiggling everywhere.
52. always look good in clothes
53. always look tiny compared to everyone else.
54. stand out at parties.
55. stand out at school.

motivated? i cant cant cant wait to be thin.

2009-01-10T16:36:00.002+08:00

believe in you
first week of school, hectic. hell lot of homework. sitting with jiahui makes life a lil interesting but sometimes irritating. eating alot in school makes me feel so gross my god. training everyday after school. gotten the grouping for eastzone. tough grouping but guess we'll just do our best. i know we can. go go go. go greenview netball. <3

so far yet so near. ironic shit.

im tired. im sleepy. i need to study now. homework.

remember my goals, stay strong. self discipline!
"fix yourself, so you can be happy bitch." dont want food. dont give in. dont be fat.

2009-01-05T21:52:00.001+08:00

fighting the good fight
yesterday was tiring. cheryl was the happy one.

today was worse. crowded canteen as usual. lessons ended at 0220 today. sleepy poa lessons. cca trial. netball training. coach sharon came! hahaha. okay after training. home sweet home.

lose weight. i wanna be skinny. i know it's gonna be hard.
im on a fruit diet from tomorrow till april. everyday fruits. nothing other than fruits water juice. im so gonna lose wight. get rid of fats. be skinny. i know i can.

im sleeping at ten. school tomorrow. training after that. planning some cca fair things. going out with mum.

every kg lost makes life great. make it happen, shock everyone yay me

2009-01-03T19:04:00.003+08:00

life is like this: sometimes sun; sometimes rain
so yes yes yes training today. courtplay was messy very messy. me cannot make it as a GA. stamina not there. messing up the whole play. clumsy heavy gah. :@ didnt went for extremes training because of my leg. painful. stupid shoes. :@@

i wanna lose weight before i turn 16 officially which is 20april2009. need to get rid of some fucking fats. need to run soon. need to be lighter. need to start running. gonna do some crunches tonight.

wednesday having pe, taking height and weight i suppose.
i wanna weigh lesser than _ _ _ ty kilos pleaseeeeeeeee. :/ :/ :/

"if sitting at school constantly tap your feet/fingers. fidgeting throughout day is proven to burn up to 800 calories per day" wow be amazed fatties.

maybe this: http://www.fitnessmagazine.com/workout/tips/
stay strong. s.k.i.p.d.i.n.n.e.r.t.o.n.i.g.h.t. think thin.

2009-01-02T20:56:00.003+08:00

faith is to believe what you do not yet see; the reward for this faith is to see what you believe
first day of school. assembly. fourth level classroom. crowded canteen. usual recess clique. relief form teacher with priceless expressions. as adorable 3E3'08 classmates hehehe. :) after school, practice shots and home. shower and slept till around 8. doing homework later i guess, after little nonya.

saturday= netball trainings. have faith. be strong. go greenview netball. <3

2009-01-01T14:58:00.001+08:00

merely a shadow drifting among the crowd
goodbye 2008, hello 2009. i cannot believe a year has come and gone already. i know everyone says that, but really.

so yesterday was countdown outside marina square. reached there around 9plus, got a place to sit. played poker cards. some drinks. starbucks hehehe. then beautiful fireworks. damn foam spray. after the countdown. walked aimlessly. to suntect city to bugis to town. stopped along the way. in the end chilled @plazza sing till the next morning. mrt back to pasir ris. cabbed home with doggy. i'm so tired. i feel like i could sleep for a whole day. probably could. hahaha but no i have to do last minute shopping for school tomorrow. yawns.

what a begining to the new year 2009. hopefully everything will turn out great. have an awesome 2009 humans. happy new year. :)

school tommorow. so.reluctant.to.go. :/

2008-12-31T12:20:00.003+08:00

you can change, you can be more than you are
its new year eve.
2008 is almost over. what an interesting year, with serious downs and some great highs as well. everyone let's welcome 2009 with an open heart, hopefully it will be better than 2008. have a safe and merry new year eve.

i wanna lose weight so desperately. please let me have the willpower to lose some fucking weight. i will be happier then.

i have to stay strong, be in control.
i.need.to.lose.weight.fast.

2008-12-31T00:12:00.004+08:00

i want to be the girl who has it all
training in the afternoon, stayed back awhile to shoot. after training bus to tampines to have dinner with charmaine. saw bestf omg omg omg its been so long since ive last met her and when i saw her i made her mobile fly hahaha, im sorry. okay after that walked around tm. then mrt back to pasir ris. around 10 plus home sweet home. :)

school reopen in another three more days omg omg. 2009 in another two more days.

countdown with humans tmr yay yay yay.

huge, feeling overweight is a vulnerability.

2008-12-30T11:59:00.001+08:00

karma: whatever you do comes back to you
i think my baby is cooooooooooool. im happy happy happy hahaha.
woke up early today. my maid thought my training is in the morning so she woke me up at 8. so i woke up at 8 unwillingly and cant fall back to sleep. yes yawns. training later plus buying of school bag. :)

quiz from doggy woof.
1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
what do you think?

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
feel like slapping my maid hahaha

3. Who was the last person you took a picture of?
plus? lol

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
a little

5. Would you ever donate blood?
it all depends

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
yesssssssssssssss. ever HAD. :(

7. Do you want someone dead?
maybe

8. What does your last text message says?
not sure, my phone's not with me now

9. What are you thinking right now?
my new baby and lose weight heeheeheehee

10. Do you wish someone was with you now?
maybe

11. What time do you go to sleep last night?
two plus i think.

12. Where did you bought the shirt you're wearing now?
takashimaya: nike store

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
yes

14. Who was the last person to text you?
forgot my phone's not with me now

im lazy to do the second part so yaaaaa that's all for the quiz. :)

2008-12-29T23:41:00.005+08:00

plus: tnet street netball first runner up \m/

2008-12-29T23:13:00.004+08:00

lies are just pretty words that sound perfect.
woke up at 10 this morning. tv, bathed and went to meet charmaine in school at 3. met yap, queensway shopping center. laksa for lunch. look around for shoes. got myself a pair of adidas shoes while charmaine got herself a pair of nike shoes. okay heartpain. hahaha but the shoes looks really good. cool baby. can change the color of the stripes one you know haha. then ikea for dinner. then bus to bedok interchange, mrt to pasir ris. dad fetch me home.

netball training tomorrow at 3pm. jiayouuuuuuuuuu :)

2008-12-29T00:49:00.003+08:00

something inside just shuts off
yesterday: training in the morning. bugis marina yoshinoya esplanade with char yap and yap's sissy. great but tiring. i took bus home and i actually miss my stop and end up in some fucking ulu place omg okay whatever dumb me.

today met them @pasir ris control station. to ngee ann city for tnet street netball competition. first runner up. well well well i guess we were all tired towards to end, the last game. no im quite sure we're all tired lol. okay after prize presentation we had dinner @kfc. waited outside ngee ann city to watch germz and co working as mascot haha. okay after that walked to heeren with aneh and apen, chilled @spinelli, played cards and talk talk haha. germz and co came and we went somerset mrt. then home sweet home. :)

pictures soon. i guess im falling asleep soon. goodnight all.

school's reopening in another four more days *cries

2008-12-26T23:53:00.005+08:00

cure for a heart is to move along.
two movies in a day. with cheryl senghai tiansoon @tampinese mall. bedtime stories and yes man. not too bad. then dinner @kfc. sent cheryl senghai to compasspoint. then home sweet home.

school's reopening. eastzone tournament arriving. im looking forward to play i hope it'll be a really good one. it will be the last year i really hope i'll be able to contribute much to the team. i really wanna achieve something this time.

i know we can. we'll make it through. go greenview netball. *cheers*

cheryl cheer up, love youuuuuuuuuuu(k)

2008-12-25T19:45:00.004+08:00

think thin think thin think thin.

merry christmas, :)

last few days were great. cousin's wedding @four season hotel. netball chalet. though there's not many people but i guess midnight card games were awesome. playing netball in the night was fun. sharing of ghost stories was creepy. counting down to christmas like crazy was crazy. LOL(inside joke). okay great. lazy to elaborate. i think i quite enjoy myself though the disappointments that many gave.

i spent christmas sleeping the whole day cause im dead beat after the chalet. i came home bathed and off to my bed. bestf coming all the way to my place to pass me the christmas gift thanks(k)

6 more days to 2009: how do you feel?

2008-12-22T11:10:00.005+08:00

still, i know to trust my own true mind and to say, "there's a way through this."
busy weekend.

will be away for chalet from today till 24. relatives(cousin) wedding dinner later. post in details with pictures another time. enjoy the last two(?) weeks of holidays and suffer when school reopens again. yawns.

yes i need to lose some weight. control my diet. feeling damn fat nowadays. i need to exercise and go get fruit or veggies. i need to lose weight before 2009 arrives. wish me luck, i really need it. lose.weight.lose.weight

anyway happy merry christmas in advance to youuuuuuuuuuuu!
<33

2008-12-19T22:20:00.003+08:00

make me laugh, it burns calories.

so today was kinda relaxed, spent the whole day sleeping plus tv and now lappy. little nonya is so irritating, always ends at the very exciting part. have to wait till monday again

-.-

tomorrow having two trainings again and after that steamboat @char's place. gonna snap and blog if im not tired. so look forward ya!

okay im fat i think diet fails. :( but whatever be happy can already la right! goodnight all.

2008-12-17T15:49:00.004+08:00

back to every broken heart, on the day that it was breaking
In approx three weeks time = jan 2009.

2009. School reopens. Catching up with friends and studies. Last eastzone competition with dearest greenview netball. Last but not least olevels. Mug with friends. Okay sounds so packed. All in 2009. How great.

There's ups and downs in year 2008. Got into extremes junior team. Cdiv'06 fell apart. Change of netball coach. Falling in and out of love. Lovely classmates that make school life more interesting. Awesome friends that were always here. Bestfriends still contacting. Good and bad times. Im glad ive got my friends and bestfriends around. :)

Im so going to start afresh. Im leaving everything behind.
2009 will be awesome i hope. :)

2008-12-15T23:47:00.004+08:00

requires a leap of faith
Theme park with cheryl dee fiona rafidah. Met them @burgerking around 11plus. Waited for cheryl outside theme park. Rides. Lunch @kfc, fucking full i swearrrr. Diyana left. After that arcade. Get sushi from fair price. Back in theme park. Around 8 went back home. :) a good day afterall. <3

Watched sky of love last night till 4plus in the morning. Beautiful sad love show, made me cried like a bitch while watching, but well really good. :)

2008-12-14T20:14:00.002+08:00

ting charm fad jingsi chilly suntect

2008-12-14T20:01:00.003+08:00

perfect skies with no rain
Yesterday training @school in the morning. Trained with an empty stomach thus i feel like vomitting throughout the whole training. After training went for lunch @loyang point. Bathed and changed went to kalllang for extremes training. Till around 7. Dined @kfc. Suntect city to chill after dinner. (:

Today i slept the whole afternoon againnnnnnnnnn. Woke up around 5plus. Suppose to meet cassandra for dinner but i guessed it's cancelled yawwwwwwns.

I have to walk my doggie jojo now haha. Goodnight.

2008-12-14T00:01:00.003+08:00

Tired. I need to sleep. But i think tv first. Blog tomorrow if possible.
Goodnight. :)

2008-12-12T23:45:00.004+08:00

and smashing through the windshieldWorst morning ever, woke up by a call from the police station. Telling me that my wallet was found. And the thing is i dont even know when i lost my wallet _!_ shower immediately and went down to the police station to get my wallet. 100$ gone~ and cried like a bitch.

Met cheryl @cineleisure. Movie with her. Went takashimaya for lunch with cheryl's sis. Went around to do some christmas shopping. Im feeling damn broke. 100$ gone. Ok _!_. Walked around takashimaya. Far east. Lucky plaza. Back to takashimaya. Cineleisure. Long john silver. Heeren. Bugis. Mrt. Home. :) got myself something.

Cheryl is the winner today, she got her bag she wanted for zillion years after bargaining thinking calling many zillion times. Happy cheryl i see. :) great day i guess. Except the part when i know my wallet was lost and found with ALL my cash gone _!_

Goodnight now. Two trainings tmr. Morning @school then afternoon @kallang. :)

2008-12-11T23:50:00.003+08:00

Tingting germain. (: Extremes carnival@ kallang netball court

everything's different than it was before.

2008-12-11T22:07:00.005+08:00

everything's different than it was before.
Didn't went to char's place today. Too lazy to travel till Commonwealth. Really sorry. Slept almost the whole afternoon. Woke up at 7. Tv till 10. Using the lappy now.

The anonymous tags are from yap ting ting. Thanks bitch. Really sorry for not able to make it la.

@sentosaaaa

2008-12-11T01:08:00.006+08:00

Rafidah's birthday celebration/ Gathering @Sentosa. :)
Met fiona. Met cheryl kzel rafidah. Met the rest. Mrt to harbourfront. Lunch @burgerking. Monorail to sentosa beach. Birthday surprise. Took photos. Volley ball. Play play play. Bathed. Monorail back to vivo city. Took photos. Walked around. Check movie timing. Starbucks for drink. Dinner @kfc. Mrt back to pasir ris. Slacked awhile under block. Home sweet home. :) lazy to blog in details.

Tired. Going char's place tomorrow. Goodnight.

Note to self: Lose weight before 2009 begins. Deal with yee. All the way chan yay. :)

Fat fat fatz

2008-12-09T04:00:00.008+08:00

a little pathetic
Just ended call with the self proclaimed handsome bitch. Cheer up bitch, be happy kay. (:

Currently @tampines mac accompanying my sister to study. And hardworking me attempt to complete my history assignments but as usual it failed. I end up talking on phone using the lappy hahaha! Kinda sad huh. :( whatever well well well majong with charm meiling sarah tomorrow, hopefully i'll wake up on time to meet em @clementi! Hahaha.

My skin is like peeling off. Sunburnt. My lips are like cracking. Damn painful.

Kay im going to get my mac breakfast nowwwwww! Damn excited hahahaha! Goodbye all. Have an awesome tuesday.

Take things slower

2008-12-07T17:37:00.006+08:00

take things slower.
I guess i'll be @home sleeping today. Im very tired.

Next week there'll be no netball trainings till sat. Hopefully i'll make good use of the time. :) okay goodbye, im going to watch dvds now. Im bored.

Im sad. I dont know why.

Best for me

2008-12-06T22:49:00.005+08:00

what's best for me.
Extremes carnival @kallang today. Im so tired. My face is damn red and like painful.

Played 8 games, lost 2. Lost to TKSS and SCGS. Both games were quite close. Game with TKSS was really good i think the team did well though we lost.

I always cant shoot whenever the game needs my shots. Both the games are like this. We were leading at first and i kinda lose it. Missed alot of underpole shots. Sorry teammates. :(

Extremes carnival was a really good experience ya, go greenview netball. :D

Next week i will be sleeping and catching up on my studies @home hahaha. I need to start on something seriously. :)

See me struggle

2008-12-04T20:49:00.003+08:00

you may see me struggle, but you will never see me fall.
Met up with cheryl rafidah for movie and bowling yesterday. Awesome. :)

Weather today spoiled all fun. Suppose to be having a friendly game with an aussie team. They came down already you know! But game was cancelled due to the wet weather. :( well they look gorgeous. :) went to e!hub with charm huixuan rafidah shannon zoey to have lunch(dinner).

Good luck dearest juniors. Do your best and rock the court! :D

Wanna watch tv now, goodbye. (I'll upload the photos another time)

Forever is a long, long time.

2008-12-03T00:38:00.004+08:00

forever is a long, long time and time has a way of changing things.
I feel like having macdonald's breakfast now hahahahahhaha! Okay lame.

Training was fine. Veneetha becoming slim is making me upset. So im on a diet. Its time to lose some fucking weight to make meself feel happy. Also to welcome year 2009! I'll be damn happy if i were to lose some weight before 2009 arrive! :D

Okay. Goodbye. Enjoy your tomorrow. (:

Let it go

2008-12-01T23:13:00.003+08:00

take a breath and let it go.
Things are better nowwwwwwww. (:
Friends.

Netball plus studies will come first for now.

Studied just now with rafidah. Hardworking i know. BUT we only done a chapt of history's mindmap and i think its only half done(loser much). HAHAHA. We end up sharing our stalking stories. Shes sucha STALKER! Ass hahaha!

Tomorrow i'll be having training, hopefully my ankle wont give way and kill me.

(:

This is where it ends

2008-11-30T03:24:00.001+08:00

this is where it ends.
Yesterday night was nightmare. Tonight is no better.

Theres no need for us to be strangers. Why must things turn out like this. I dont like how things turn out to be. But whatever. Since you have decided. Tyvm for everything, goodbye to you.

Im tired. Fucking worn out. Goodbye.
:(

2008-11-29T00:42:00.001+08:00

Even the most beautiful days have their sunsets.
Happy or sad. Whatever it is. I told myself to be strong and i will. I'll get over this. It will all be over soon. Cried all out already. Nothing more i can do now. No regrets. No nothing. Since ive decided to end this. I know the consequences of it. I cry and i'll be stronger.

Look forward. Leave everything behind. Start all over again. Be strong chan. You ask for it. You know that its gonna happen.

Its all expected.
Yes.

2008-11-28T01:41:00.002+08:00

Wishing only wound the heart.
Training in the afternoon. I almost puke at rafidah's face during training today HAHAHAHAHAH. Fell down during courtplay, super unglam. Okay dumb. After training went central. Then sat under some block and talked to hassnan.

2008-11-27T03:21:00.005+08:00

Cup noodles+Sprite.
Im feeling so broke now you know. I need a job for a month or two.

I'll start my proper mugging by Feb09, not too early not too late.

Plan ahead everybody. :)

Netball is my first priority for now. Everything can wait.

I'll train very hard and hopefully i'll improve.

I'll be strong. Whatever happens. :)

2008-11-26T10:02:00.002+08:00

Tilting the hourglass.
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M BACK I'M FINALLY BACK. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) Bet you guys missed me hahahaha.

Just reached home. I miss my lappy. I miss everybody here.

I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. I feel so fat. SO FAT. After eating continuously on cruise. Regretz. :( :( :(

Cruise trip was alright. Not as bad. Many different kinds of people. Many jokes. Eating continuously everyday. Laugh. Sleep. Casino(im able to get in you know!!). Drop off at Phuket for a day tour. Shopping. Phuket is a nice place, i like. :D i think that's all. Im lazy to elaborate, im feeling sleepy. I think im going to sleep now or maybe TV for awhile hahahaha.

Alrighty. Goodnight everybody. Have a nice day.

2008-11-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

No one knows what it's like,
Went out to Eunos to collect something, then met sissy at parkway parade. Then bus to tampines. Seoul garden for dinner. Then mrt back to pasir ris. :)

Training tmr. Then meet up with bestf to get something for the cruise trip in the evening.

Im damn damn reluctant to go on cruise tomorrow you know, haven't even pack my things yet. Should be damn looking forward but somehow i dont know why i dont. Damn i feel like i got force to go why why why. :( will be going for 5 days, till wednesday yawns. Pray for me! Pray that i'll be having fun and enjoying myself. I doubt i will. I think it'll screw up big time. Cause nobody close to me is going, except for my mama. My sisters are not going also. Tell me what holiday is this. Yawns. Whatever la. Worse come to worse i'll bring the lappy along. I'll isolate myself in the room. Im anti-social. Zzzz. Can't be bothered anymore. I'll just go to make my mama happy.

POSITIVE:
I need a break now. From everything everything and everything. Maybe tomorrow's trip will be a good break for me i'll TRY to enjoy myself. Hopefully i'll enjoy myself.

So pissed and tired now, i need to sleep or else i'll explode like a fucking bitch. Moodswings, _!_

2008-11-20T19:53:00.009+08:00

I`m tryna be strong but the strength i have is washing away.
Training today @school was fine. Didn't get as much scoldings as compared to the first time i played GA. :) :) :) so happy haha. More improvements is needed, i need to use my brain more to play! Coach always say i left my brain @home. I don't know why i can't think when i play. I NEED TO START THINKING, I NEED TO USE MY BRAIN AND STOP BEING LAZY!

Anyway stupid hassnan sister is so clever, she got 252 for psle. Congrats haha. And hassnan can go for a feast @swensens. How unfair right it's like none of her business hahaha!

Last night talked to enru online. Thanks for being such a caring cute pig showing many many concern haha. Bet she's having loads of fun @Shanghai. Take care of yourself kay. I miss miss miss you!

Go greenview netball. We need to work very hard together. I believe we can achieve what we want if we all put in many many effort. Go gvnb. :)

2008-11-18T02:03:00.001+08:00

Miss you much. :(

2008-11-17T02:54:00.003+08:00

You make me laugh, you make me cry.
Met cassandra around 8plus.
I'm @cassandra`s crib now and i think she`s about to sleeeeeeep.

Let nature takes it course. Things will go the way they meant to be. I'm always like this. I can't do much now. Hopefully things will get better. Love.

Okay i think im going to sleep now, goodnight all.

I'm glad i have a bunch of really nice friends. Thanks. (:

2008-11-16T17:30:00.009+08:00

:(
2000: Feeling much better now.
Thanks to: cassandra buddy keith nabiil.

2008-11-14T00:42:00.004+08:00

I never thought that I’d get hit with this lovebug again.
Met smelly yesterday noon. Home around 10 plus going 11. :)

Training @kallang today. Damned weather. Favouritism. Shit. Bus brought us back to school. Pasar malam with hasnan and huixuan. Fat. Following trainings will be all held in school. Will be damn paiseh, when he screams at me and ya, omfg cannot imagine please. :( :( :( :(

Whatever. Let it be.

Meeting genevieve around 12 in the noon. Hopefully it'll be goooooooood. It's been so long since i last met her, so interesting hahaha. :) :) :)

Imyvm.

2008-11-11T20:46:00.002+08:00

Rebuild my mind so I'm strong again.
Hello hello hello, hello all.

Training cancelled today.

The (red)team came over my place to watch orphanage(dvd) and eat. Scream. Shout. Laugh. Eat. Took photos. Session ended around 6 going 7pm. Great bonding session. I think we need to have more of this. More team bonding sessions. Hope you all had fun. And from now on let's work hard together for all upcoming competitions.

Work hard as a team, achieve as a team. We can do it. Go bdiv'08. Remember believe and you`ll see. Believe we can do it, and we'll do it!! (: (: (:

P.S. Netballers please grab the photos here, cause i can't go online. My msn sot. Doesn't allow me to go online. Sorry. ):

2008-11-10T21:49:00.001+08:00

Click click click flash.
Went school in the morning for cca review thing. Then home.

My day passed without a meaning. I Sleep. I Wake up. I Shower. I TV. I Exercise. I Shower. I Ice my ankle. I Sleeping soon. I so no life. I enjoy ~~not~~. (:

Training tomorrow. Hopefully i can do what coach wants. Hopefully i can survive. Hopefully nothing bad will happened.

Hopefully i will not breakdown and cry like a baby.
I can do it. I know i can. (:

Goodnight everyone.

2008-11-09T23:55:00.007+08:00

I'm icing both my ankle now. My god. Both legs aching like mad. And one side of my back hurts. I feel as if my body is not mine anymore -.-

Out with cheryl dee fiona hasnan. Met them @cityhall around 3. Then went somerset to meet cheryl. Ate subway, many many veggiez (right hasnan) thanks for the healthy meal.

Off to far east. After cab down to bugis. Cheryl went for haircut. Dee left to meet her parents. Settle down @swensens for awesome (foursome) dinner. (: (:

Great time with them. Laughing. Talking. Veggiez. Undergarments. Sex bands. Cheryl's hair. Worrying about next year olevels. Chalet. Everything. Thanks for the day. You people make my day like always. Arrange another outing with full attendence of the usual kids soon kay muahaha! (L)

:( why like this?

2008-11-09T11:56:00.003+08:00

Hold on. Keeps getting better.
Body aching. Ache ache ache.

Training(school) yesterday got scolded like mad again. ): i`ll never never give up. For the team, for myself. Go jiaqi. Keep going. Never never never never give up!

Extremes training @kallang was fine and i saw yap ting ting! Hahaha. So great hahaha. Went kallang leisure park for dinner then nearby kallang river to slack with char germz jingsi ting. (:

Meeting cheryl and co later joy joy joy. I miss em all very very very de much. Update again later! (:

2008-11-06T21:22:00.003+08:00

>:(
Today training. Totally gave up. Sorry teammates. Sorry coach. :(

Having second thoughts. Not enjoying the game. Seems like i can't do what the coach wants. How why what happened. :(

So exhausted.

Come on. Mental strength!

2008-11-04T22:38:00.001+08:00

Even the wrong words seem to rhyme.
Felt so lousy today during training. Timing off. Missed shots. Passes couldn't make it. Too rush. Everything make me damn pissed and disappointed with myself. Was constantly reminding myself just now to keep my cool try my best and don't give up but i can't. I don't know why. Everything is so wrong now. :( :(

2008-11-04T00:33:00.002+08:00

You don’t care how it hurts until you lose the one you wanted.
Trip with cassandra enru jo was cancelled. Met z just now yay yay yay yay yay. :)

Training tomorrow. Have to catch up with the team. Not training for more that a week. I wanna play the position i used to play. :( :(

Note to self: Put in 100% in whatever postion given, train hard never never give up, keep going chan. I KNOW I CAN!!!!!

2008-11-03T01:37:00.002+08:00

No one knows how far a girl will go for something she really wants.
Hi hello hi hello. Woke up late in the noon. Suppose to go for movie with dee and raf but overslept. Met cassandra in the evening for dinner. Slacked at void deck then home around 11plus. :)

Tomorrow meeting cassandra enru jo yay yay yay yay. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

Feeling damn broke. Just realise i lost my money. In need of *kaching kaching* :(

Able to train now. But like not very happy. Don't know why. Feeling so selfish. Jiaqi you're so selfish. >:(

2008-10-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

Took me by surprise.
Training @kallang netball center today. I miss doing courtplay. I wanna be able to train like the rest asap!!!!! Damn irritated for not able to train with the rest.

After training went back to school, shower. Then off to meet cassandra, to ehub for dinner. Then walked around.. then slacked nearby my place. Then home. :)

2008-10-27T11:44:00.007+08:00

Make my day.
Happy Deepavali. Happy holidays. :) out yesterday with parents in the afternoon. Met (L) at night, went home around 2plus yawns. :)

2008-10-25T18:28:00.002+08:00

Let's waste time chasing cars.
Training this morning, did nothing but practice shots, endless shots. After training lunch @loyang point. Then walked home with hasnan, trying to avoid the damn huge Sun. Taking breaks at every point lol.

I have nowhere to go now. Boring. Suppose to go for extremes`s training but the thought of not able to train makes me not want to go. I want my ankle to recover asap leh. I'm so afraid that i`ll not be able to catch up with the team. :(

Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow! -happy!

2008-10-24T23:52:00.002+08:00

All my faith has gone you bring it back to me.
Hello all. Feeling fat. Unable to train thanks to my ankle. Fuck the ankle. Always so weak. Giving me trouble. I really wanna train but my ankle.. so depressing.

Let this holiday be a fruitful one please. Netball trainings. Some catching up with my studies and friends. Also a job with damn flexible time. :) :) :) it'll be awesome if i'm able to juggle with all these during the holidays.

More than a week, Sunday night please come faster -hugs.

2008-10-24T03:18:00.000+08:00

I CAN`T GET TO SLEEP!

I THINK I`M GOING TO WATCH TV NOW. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

GOODBYE TAKECARE SEE YOU AGAIN.

2008-10-24T02:24:00.001+08:00

Whatever you go through, it all makes you stronger.
Last day of normal school days, joy joy joy joy(!!). 4E3 next year yay yay yay yay, promise to study damn hard for olevels. :) holidays are here, hopefully i`ll make full use of the time. Netball training. Study. Meet up with friends. Outing. Sleepovers. Fun fun fun. :)

Dinner @Seoul garden with jo and pig. Awesome. Funny. Fat. After that walked around. Then went to DeckA6 to meet cassandra. Then home. :) more dinner more outing together please.

It's been a week. Imy.

NOTE TO SELF: PLEASE BE STRONG.

IGNORE ALL ODDS THAT ARE AGAINST YOU!

2008-10-23T01:51:00.003+08:00

As i lie awake in bed a million throughts run through my head.
Always like this. Fuck the feeling, fuck.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

2008-10-21T04:50:00.001+08:00

I'm a failure at heart.
Give up or try harder? I can't make up my mind. I'm no good at making decision. I wish you would give me some kind of signs to tell me how you feel. Anything, really, just something to let me know I should still hold onto the idea of us. As much as I don't want to, I'm so close to letting go.

I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Fuck this.

2008-10-20T04:40:00.000+08:00

Why love when you know it`s going to be tough.
(from tingting`s blog)

I swear tingting and kongwei is being so awfully sweet. Thanks for being there when i`m like damn down like now. Thanks.

Tingting jiayou for your olevels, you have always been there for me even though we didn`t know each other for very long, i`m really glad that you are always there for me. Always crying for the same things and you are always there for me without fail. Thanks.

I think all good things must come to an end. And here is the end. It`s over even before we could start. Thanks for the memories, Goodbye Z.

2008-10-20T01:11:00.005+08:00

Never again i swear.
House bunny @ plaza singapura with charmaine and sarah. After that went to wisma to meet cassandra. Walked around eat and everything. Went to meet enru and joanne at Decka6, we`re meeting again on thurs for dinner yay yay yay yay yay yay yay i can`t wait!

Ankle looking damn ugly now. Blue black. :( :( : (: ( tomorrow will be visting the chinese physician again so no school for me tmr hooray!

I hate the way you treat me. Making me cry now doesn`t make it any better. I hate you. I never wanna contact you again. Goodbye. Everything is not true.

2008-10-18T22:41:00.005+08:00

You're in my head like a song on the radio
Aww. I love my friends. Thank you so much, keith kzel and tingting (in ABC order).

Training today, can`t last. Damn weak, ankle being so weak and argh. :( met coach yanxiu and mr bok then went to see a chinese physician. Won`t be able to train for a week after ankle recover. Which means i`ll only be able to train when the holidays start. Will have alot to catch up man, stamina will drop like mad. :( :( :( :(

After seeing the chinese physician went to kallang netball court for extremes training. Though i didn`t get to train but it was really awesome seeeing charmaine and the rest. It`s been so long since i last met them. After training went for dinner with charmaine and jingsi then father fetched me home ^^

I have a feeling things won`t go the way i want. Fuck the insecurities.